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A Journey of Working on Myself, For Myself

Today I’m celebrating one year since completing my (initial) ketamine journey.  I debated sharing this, because it is vulnerable and very personal, but mental health is not talked about enough. Recovering and healing from mental health issues is not talked about enough. I am a social work major with a psych minor. I work in the mental health field. I tell all my friends to go to therapy. I figured it is time to be open about mental health on social media. Let's be real, that's where people get all their information anyway. I’m sharing this post in hopes that it will resonates with at least one person. I hope this story can make someone feel a little less alone or a little less hopeless.  I never thought it would be possible to live a life that wasn't constantly fogged by my depression and anxiety. More specifically, I didn't even know who I was without my mental health issues. I don't think people realize how terrifying the thought of healing is, because it means ge...

Thank You 2020

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2020          Since I was old enough to comprehend what the year 2020 was, I couldn't wait for it. I knew that 2020 was going to be the year that held so many bittersweet endings and so many new beginnings. I knew that I was going to turn 18 and become an adult. I was finally going to graduate high school, younger me didn't comprehend that I still had a whole lot of education to go through, lol. I was going to decide on a college of my choice. The most dreaded though, I was going to move out and away from what has always been my home. I was so excited, and I looked forward to all of the huge changes and experiences that I would get to have during 2020.      What I didn't know, was that 2020 was going to hold a lot more changes than just the ones that I expected. I think the best word to describe this year is 'unprecedented.' So many things happened that no one would have ever even imagined. How were we supposed to know that when we ...

Eighteen

Eighteen Milestone There is a few big milestones you hit while growing up. You turn 13 and officially become a teenager, then you have your sweet 16, then you finally become an adult and turn 18, and then there's 21, you're the real deal now. Well I have hit one of the last milestones-- 18 years old. While all the previous milestones haven't seen like much of a change, this one is different. This one is big. This one comes with all of the changes.  Changes In the next year of my life,  I am going to go through some of the biggest changes that I might ever go through in lifel. I am going to graduate high school, I am going to move away from the place I have called home for the past 18 years, and I am going to start college. I am going to living without my mom to help me with my every move. I won't have her putting all of my events in her calendar so I won't forget, or have her making sure I get my prescriptions. I won't even have her doing my laundry. I...

Sappy High School Stuff

I was laying in my bed with my lamp on looking at beauty school pricing and whatnot, when I glanced over at my window where I have all of my favorite seniors' graduation announcements hanging. Today was their last day of high school, and I cannot believe how quickly that came. I'm sure they feel that emotion 10 times stronger than I do right now, but it is still crazy to me. I remember being so scared to go into 7th grade and meet all of the 8th graders. Looking back on it, I don't really know why I was scared because I became best friends with a lot of them very quickly. I made some of my longest lasting friendships when the seniors were 8th graders and I was a 7th grader at Taylorview. It feels like it was maybe a year ago, at most. Now they are done. As crazy as that all is, it is even crazier to me that I am now the oldest at school. I remember being a freshman and looking up to the senior class, now I am the senior class. I hope that this year's freshman can look u...

A Year Later...

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Last April It is insane to think that almost exactly a year ago I wrote my post, "April Showers Bring May Flowers." I was not in a good point of my life last April, but little by little the May flowers did come. Unfortunately once the fall months rolled around, the flowers started to wither away, and by winter they were dead. I thought I would never experience a hurt worse than the one I experienced a year ago, but wow, I was wrong. I should have known what was coming, since I was surrounded by people who had hurt me and some people who were apart of my life last year. The past couple months I have gone through some heart-wrenching things that have torn me to pieces. I have never experienced pain like the pain I have felt these past few months. I do not want to dwell on the negative, but this has been a big part of my life lately. Forgiveness I am probably one of the most forgiving people you'll ever meet, which is good sometimes, but often bad. I chose to forgive ...

Happy New Year

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Goodbye 2018 I know that everyone and their dog has been saying that 2018 was the best and worst year of their lives, but for me it honestly was nothing less. I had some of the most awful times of my life happen last year, but I was also repaid with some of the most amazing experiences that I will never forget. I learned so many lessons throughout the course of 2018, that were crucial for my well-being and for my style of life. Here are some of the most important things I learned in 2018: Do not take anything for granted. You never know when something will happen causing something so normal to you to be gone forever. It can be huge things, like death, which I unfortunately experienced way too much of this year, or it can be simple things, like fights that ruin everything. Sometimes we get so used to a certain routine that we forget to appreciate the  little things that dramatically change our lives. We don't realize that those little things aren't so little until they gon...

NSLC Boston

The next nine days of my life will be spent traveling to Boston, MA and attending the National Student Leadership Conference for Psychology and Neuroscience. I will be staying on Emmanuel College campus and doing activities on both Emmanuel and Harvard Medical School campuses. I have never been more excited for a trip in my life! I will be traveling alone, which is a little scary, but I know it'll be worth it! I have only flown two trips that I can remember - so this is a huge step out of the comfort zone for me. Wish me luck!! I am officially back in Idaho after spending the last nine days across the country, experiencing the most amazing times of my life. I was so excited to attend NSLC, and I knew it would be a great opportunity for me, but I never expected that my life would be completely changed while attending this program. I am still the same person I was when I arrived in Boston on day one, but I have grown and flourished in ways I didn't know were possible. I met so...